On the 25th Nov 2006, our beloved grandpa left us in a tragic way. I still remember that day when my family rushed to Limbang to find out what actually happen to my family who is involved in the accident. Still fresh in my mind, when my uncle received the 3rd call from my brother ry telling us the bad new which we didn’t expect to happen. My grandpa left us forever.
The crying and shouting from my uncle was one of the scream that i ever heard before when my beloved grandma left us too back in 1986. He shouted saying “ Ry don’t play around, are you sure?” i was in the car and my mom ask me to go and ask what happen to my uncle where he was kicking the car tyre.
I ran to him and ask what happen? Instead telling me what happen, he hug me and cried. Came my mom and did the same thing infect much more she grab my uncle and asked “Why zul? What happen? Are they save? What happen? Tell qaqa...” With tears running down, my uncle voice saying “pako left us forever!” My mom dropped down and cried.
In the car my parents didn’t talk much but only crying. I had to hold myself from crying that much as my mom needs me to be strong. My mom is a soft hearted type and i know she aint able to handle this heart-rending news by herself. I would understand her situation that time.
Therefore i keep saying to everyone in the car “Let’s just not jump into conclusion, let pray hard to Allah that Pako is ok. Who know ry heard the wrong thing! Let’s think positive all!”
Even though that moment i felt my vision is all black. I nearly not that strong to fight all this but i left no choice. I have to be the leader in the family and act on any decision that needs to be made.
Arrive to Limbang Hospital, i ran from my car straight to the emergency room. I see my family, ry, pa chu & aizat were bandage and covered with blood all over their body. i was shocked and un patiently ask ry where is my grandpa. He didn’t able to speak, then the nurse escort me, sam, ayah & achie to operate theatre, ya Allah a body cover with a white cloth covering till the head.. my heart stops for a sec, my head was blank.
The nurse asks if we are ready to see the body? My uncle gather us and asked us to be strong and ready for whatever that we are going to see. There i was, feeling cold, scared, worry... all un-describable feelings.
The body wrapped was open and there i witness my beloved grandpa looking pale, purple, too many stitches on his face. I can’t bear seeing him more. My uncle, sam & me hugged him tightly and cried non stopped. I don’t believe all this is happening.
Too many questions asked in my mind that time. Why does all this happen like this to him? Who did all this? What am i suppose to do next?
From that minute my uncle asked me to take care all the needs in Brunei while my uncle will prepare and handle the business of transporting the body back from limbang to brunei.
I was all alone that time no one that i can share my tears and asked what to do. On my way back from limbang to brunei, i had to call back to KL to informed this sad news to my step grand ma. That was one of the hardest thing to do. I wasn’t ready to do all this, informing the sad news to my grand ma telling her that grand pa left us forever. ..
It’s a year now that he left us. His memories stay with us always in our heart. I can still sees, hear & feel him smiling, laughing and telling me stories of his past. Giving good advice is one of the things that i miss about him the most. No one can replace him in our life especially in our heart.
i will carry with me your good advice till the day i die. Im sorry that i didn’t full fill your wish to see me getting married. insAllah one day if i found the right man who can love me & except me as who im sure i will bring him to see mama and ayah to get their bless and if ada Jodoh insAllah sehingga kahwin, Amin.
Ya Allah place my beloved grand pa, grand ma and other of my relatives and all the Muslims that left us earlier in heaven. Place them among the good people who follow your instruction.
Al-fatiah for my beloved grand pa & grand ma
Rest in peace & we miss you both so much
Love from,
Your one and only grand daughter & the rest of norul’s family
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