Message for Awangku(You know who u are)

I didn’t believe with my own eyes at first but then it show. I don’t blame you for all this partly i blame myself. You gave me promises that i hold on to but it was just an illusion after all. People around me told me not to hope with the feelings i have for you but i was blind. I told myself to forget about the criteria of man that i want and trust my instinct instead.

I forget that i’m not pretty, ain’t cool enough i guess. I don’t have anything but what i only have is just my heart fill with syg. But then....

Day by day i miss you but only now i realise i miss my own shadow. Luckily i didn’t give my love but instead only “syg”. It makes things easier for me. I’m speechless. Even though i am furious towards you but then i try to understand the reasons why you did all this. On top of everything i told myself to forgive you on whatever that you have done towards me which include hurting my heart.

I was dissappointed, you ask me to be patient and wait for u as u wanna settle off ur probs but then 8 the end?!! ... Poor me!!

I will save all the memories we share in a special space in my heart. Neither revenge nor anger in my heart, I “Ikhlas” forgiving you.

I pray and wish you happiness till the end of time. Success in whatever you do and hey “believe in yourself as i believe in you and Allah will always be there for you if you ask help from him!”
Awangku give my hugs and kisses to abg. He is a smart kid and sweet, take very good care of him yeah.

And you take care of yourself always